Sibling Sex Guilt

It haunts me. I have such shame about it.
I transitioned from a girl to a woman underneath my mid teen brother when I was eleven years old. Our parents never found out and he and I do Not talk about it. 

anonymous wrote: It haunts me. I have such shame about it.
I transitioned from a girl to a woman underneath my mid teen brother when I was eleven years old. Our parents never found out and he and I do Not talk about it. 

Ok so, yeah, you are like so NOT the one only one. I did stuff too.
My very first couple of masturbation and lesbian sex experiences happened with my older sister in the room we shared.
Our parents never knew but yeah it's been like indescribably awkward between us as adults since.

I butt fucked my little chubby sister well over a half dozen times when we were kids. I was like a crazy horny thirteen year old and I found it easy to talk her into letting me do it to her.  
All I just wanted was to cum inside her. I never even bothered to try to give her any pleasure at at all. I was so unforgivingly sexually selfish. I was fucking lucky that she never told our parents. 
I know I shouldn't have done it !!! 

[color=oklch(1 0 0)] In '97 I was 13, both my younger sisters were preteens,
Our very conservative church going parents successfully coerced my sibs and I to engage in making very special "Home Movies" together.
At first it was undeniably very awkward for my sons and I but the sensations we experienced with each other soon facilitated an acceptance in all of us, especially with me. I am not sure how many tapes we made but it must have been over at least a dozen(?) or so and we all engaged in those first cam to cam meeting with like minded families by the time I was about sixteen.
When I was fourteen and behind everyone's back, I started to engage with my youngest sis on a very private basis since she seemed more receptive to the admittedly perversion that was already going on. Our parents or our other sister had no idea we were engaging with each other on our own.
It all fractured when our father was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and was gone within about a year.
The decades have passed and we have all gone our separate ways. Recently, through a cousin, I found out my youngest sister, an expat in the EU, committed suicide. Now knowing what I know about these kind of childhood experiences and their long term consequences, I just can not help but to know that I must have contributed to that outcome. [/color]

Seems odd you mention son.  And, you didn't keep in contact with your youngest sister?  I don't want to add any more guilt but that seems like a dick move.  Wishing all the best.

anonymous wrote: Seems odd you mention son.  And, you didn't keep in contact with your youngest sister?  I don't want to add any more guilt but that seems like a dick move.  Wishing all the best.

It should have
" At first it was undeniably very awkward for my SIBS and "
I should have proof read it.

Yes, big time "DICK" move by ALL concerned in every possible way.
That's why the "Guilt" is heavy !!