Homosexuality versus gay sex

I am now in my sixties. I have ever since my early teens preferred to share sex with another boy, now a man.  Sex with a girl, now a woman, has never given me the fulfillment that I am looking for. I am I suppose a bottom, in that whet it comes to penetration I want the man to fuck me. Never got the urge to fuck another man. I am oral, I love to pleasure a man's cock, lick his button hole, kiss to my heart's content. I love showering, just lazying around caressing, kissing, love making. I do get to the urge point where I need to be penetrated, fucked. And for that I want a big man, an older man, not a model type, or an Alpha type, or skinny faggot type.  A man, heavy set, prefer hairy arms, legs, butt, thick cock. Skinny little pencil cocks are not my thing. In that sense, for me 'gay' sex is what I like.

But I am not homosexual.  And that's where I think the whole narrative gets confused. I have never been in love with a man, nor have I ever desired to live with a man. I want a woman as a companion, and I do enjoy fucking a woman. I want her to spread her legs for me, to offer herself up to me. I want tits. I'm a man in that sense. I married a woman, and I have fucked a good number of women.

So that's it, being into gay sex, M4M sex, is not being homosexual. 

I can sure relate to this post  I have been married for many years love my wife and now in our 60’s sex is still good but not often. 
 As a young boy I had sex with other boys and we sucked each other off in the woods after school nearly everyday. There were several of us and many times we would all
Meet in the woods and suck in groups. Back then being around several naked boys with hard dicks was pretty exciting. We all enjoyed watching each other suck
Cock and we all didn’t mind to swallow the cum. 
 One day things changed when it was me and another boy that I liked having oral sex with because his dick was bigger than the other boys. I was on my knees sucking on his dick when he started to tell me how he wanted to put his dick in my ass. The longer he talked and the more I ducked his dick the more I wanted to get him in my ass. 
 I told him we could try it and I was laying face down in the grass with him on top of me trying to put his big dick in me. It wouldn’t go in so he started to spit on my hole over and over then he tried again. 
 I will never forget how it felt when his dick head went in my ass. It stung like crazy and I was kicking and pulling at the grass as he slowly went deeper and deeper. It took a few minutes but he got every inch of his dick up my ass and I wanted to scream it hurt so bad but it felt good too. 
 He started to fuck me but kept stopping because he said he was going to cum and he didn’t want to stop it felt so good. He fucked me a couple of minutes then with his balks touching mine he started to cum in my ass. I liked how it felt with his big dick stuck up my ass and his cum inside of me so after his nuts were empty he started to fuck me again and with my ass full of cum it made his dick very slick and he fucked me hard for a long time then told me he was going to cum in my ass again. 
 Hearing him say that was exciting and I started asking him to cum in my ass. He really came hard and he shot a lot of cum up my ass then went soft and slowly slipped out of my ass. Every day after school we met there and he fucked me and we learned different positions and it just got better each time he fucked me. 
 All I could think about was his dick in my ass and having his cum inside of me. I guess the secret got out to the other boys because before long I was getting asked if they could fuck me. Before long I had several boys fucking me and after school I would just lay naked letting them got on top of me fuck me cum in my ass then another would take his turn. More than once I had 8 boys taking turns on me and weekly gang bangs were pretty common
 On weekends we all swam in the creek and I always found a nice spot hidden in the bushes where I could lay on my towel and let all the boys fuck me for hours and all of them would take several
Turns on me while we were there. Many times I had one in my ass and one in my mouth and it was pretty common to have one or two of the others jack off while watching me and I got cum shot on me often. 
 In the 10 th grade I let a black friend of mine fuck me and his dick was very long and kinda thin but I remember how different it was seeing his black dick stuck in my white ass. Two weeks later he and another black friend took turns on me and the other one had a huge dick that I had trouble getting in my ass and he came a lot more than any of the other boys but he was 25 years old much older than I was used to. 
 All
My life I have been very anal. Mostly self penetration but there have been times when I have let other men butt fuck me and I really like it. I have a friend that is 37 years old big muscular guy. He and I have been close friends for years and for the last year or so he and I have been getting together several times a year for sex. We both suck cock but he loves to fuck me and his dick is very big. Almost 9” and very thick and he can cum multiple times when he fucks me and he can’t get enough of my ass when we are together. I like sucking his dick and there is a lot of pre cum and his balks are very big and after much practice I can now get all of him in my mouth and have his nuts touching my chin with his dick in my throat for a long time and we both enjoy that a lot. When he is around I am his sex toy. I do what ever he wants and he likes to watch me fuck my sex toys while he jacks off orbit suck his dick. He tied me up to fuck me and I wear a butt plug all the time that he removes to fuck me and I have a few sexy pairs of panties that he likes to push to the side to put his dick in me. I can’t wait for him to fuck me again and I have been talking to him about a possible gang bang if he knows other hung men that want to fuck me. I want that really bad 

I am retired and moved from Canada to Florida for the weather. I live in a trailer park, I have a small one room trailer. At the park I met some other men who have time on their hands and we play poker. Strip poker, until we are all completely naked. Lots of cock sucking, and fucking. I'm a cock sucker, and don't mind if a man with desire gets on my back to work off his troubles.

No one is gay. 

To
"Gay Sex" involves "Falling in Love" with your the boy or adult you are having sex with.
I never fell "In Love" with any of the men or young boys I had sex with since my preteens and into my adulthood. It has always been only by opportunity and for recreation.